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Late night thoughts.
i’m not ready for any type of commitment honestly. i have no time for it. i don’t like mind games or putting someone first while you put yourself second. don’t get me wrong, i really do like you. i never had feelings like this before. never had butterflies, nor have that i’m nervous/emotional wreck feeling before i get to see you, and/or that heart dropping sensation every time i hear you say you miss me through the phone. these so called feelings.. i don’t know what to think or act because i’m seriously new to this. my last relationship was total bullshit. it was strictly business and i feel sorry for myself for even taking it that far. i could control all my feelings towards him, but with you i’m a complete mess. feelings and emotions spilling out everywhere. you see i’m a control freak. if i can’t control something i freak the fuck out. i’m the type of girl who take things in her own hands but when it comes to you the imbalances comes rushing through my life. you’re the perfect distraction to my busy life and a sense of calmness i need. maybe i’m just being selfish but i apologize for my unreadiness of such of a commitment.
